Feelings an adult wouldn’t feel if a sound maturity had occurred...

Read something that really triggered feelings and thoughts...

The American therapist Jean Jenson writes that certain feelings/emotions – like abandonment, being expelled, insufficiency/inadequacy, deep dependency, that one is “mean” or “bad” or feels shame – are experienced now, in our adult life, ONLY because we couldn’t feel these emotions as children. These are feelings adults wouldn’t have if a sound maturity had occurred.

Independently of the actual circumstances, these are always OLD feelings, when they are experienced in adult age.

I think she is right, but this doesn’t mean we can’t or don’t have to understand the adult feeling/having these emotions!!!

Rationality contra emotions...

picture taken on a walk November 11, 2006.

I want to translate the comments I got to this posting (very quickly done):

“The Norwegian professor in theology Svein Aage Christoffersen writes about animal-ethics in the article ‘Do we have a common basis of valuation for animals and is this shown in how animals are held today?’:

‘Empathy, the ability to enter into, and take into oneself, what other people are exposed to is an important side in what it is to be a human being. That’s true that many are on guard when it comes to feelings in relation to animals. Our treatment of animals shall be based on facts, not emotions. That is a fear I can’t understand. When it comes to relations human beings between we know that some in fact are lacking empathy, without ability to bond/attach to other human beings with emotional ties/bonds. These people are often called a little drastically for psychopaths.

I can’t understand why psychopaths shall be models for treatment of animals.

This of course doesn’t mean that we can manage only with emotions but without facts. Of course it isn’t like that human beings between either, even if we are tied up with emotional ties. But it means that we can’t manage with facts alone. If we are acting only from facts without feelings, then we are practically without ability to differ between evilness and goodness.’

In the book about ethics ‘Action and ability to judge’ he says that the emotions have a hermeneutic meaning. They make it possible for us in understanding what is going on around us. Through our feelings we are engaged and involved in the world we live in [we react on it, we can enjoy it, really be alive]. Our feelings/emotions give us access to the world and community/fellowship with other people. Without feelings/emotions we will be without/lack ability to apprehend/understand and perceive what a life together with other people brings with it and how other perceive and experience the situation we share with them [the one without this ability is emotionally disabled!!?? Maybe emotionally disabled to different degrees, more or less?].

A person aware of what responsibility is is a person with responsibility-FEELING!”

According to the commentator Zigmunt Bauman means in his book “Auschwitz and the modern society” (or is the title in English “Modernity and The Holocaust”? See also here about this book) that

“...the Holocaust was the result of a fundamentalist fixation on reason/common sense. A sort of fundamentalist rationality. Holocaust is according to him a too far driven rationalisation. Bauman means that these rational and bureaucratic methods are used even more than ever. With this he want to say that today’s society still has potential for creating an even more ghastly future annihilation than holocaust. Bauman means that instead of seeing the Holocaust as an abnormal occurrence we should apprehend it a ‘normal’ aspect of the formal rational modern society. This means that the Holocaust is a product of the modernity and not the result of an undermined modernity.

In accordance with the critical theory’s rhetoric this could be interpreted as the culmination/climax of the irrational rationality which is characteristic for the barbaric civilisation, but Bauman pleads for another view.”

In summary:

“...he sees the Holocaust stamped by the instrumental rationality’s first and foremost distinctive mark, i.e. effectiveness, ability to predict, quantification and inhuman technology. Thus the Holocaust wasn’t a result of irrationality or for-modern barbarism, but instead a logical product of the modern rational [no emotions here!] bureaucracy.

Bauman didn’t see the rationality as neutral, as it lacked moral and was driven only by strive for effectiveness. This means that the rationality isn’t only a tool but also a goal. Baumann saw this as something negative and alarming, because such a fundamentalist fixation to reason/commons sense gets fatal results in form of a self-inflicted annihilation of common sense. However this indicates, in contrast to Baumann’s comprehension, that Holocaust as a symbol for the instrumental rationality is characterized by an irrational rationality and dehumanisation.”

Addition: Made the translation above from I got the comments and till I should see a series on TV, which means I did it in a little more than one hour, so it was really a swift translation with all what that means!!

Konrad Stettbacher talked about feelings as "Watchers of Life" ("livets väktare" in Swedish) in his book, and that we ought to protect them in children [and in ourselves and probably develop them in ourselves!!??]

But as the commentator also wrote:

“In addition to feelings we also need common sense (virtues, principles, knowledge) to be able to ponder upon ethical choices /…/ We can’t say something is right or wrong (just) because ‘we feel it is like that’."

Thanks for the comments!!! I needed this right now! It is in communication things happens?? When we awake thoughts, emotions, reflections, reactions in each other?? And try to communicate this??

Emotions...

First movement from piano-concerto no 2 by Sergei Rachmaninoff played by E. Kissin.

Addition February 16: in the magazine "Opus" there was an article "Rachmaninoff's life in a new light". Where it stood that this concerto was dedicated to his mistress Lena Dahl (a dedication which was changed to Dr. Dahl, as it stands today?), daughter to a Dr. Dahl who treated Rachmaninoff with "hypnosis-therapy", curing him.

After many years of writer's cramp, depression and addiction (it doesn't stand what sort of) put in layers with a hectic life as touring star-pianist and director he had regained his creativity and self-confidence, much thanks to that he fell in love with this Lena.

But Rachmaninoff married his cousin Natalia Satina, with whom he got two daughters. His grandson Alexander Rachmaninoff /son to Rachmaninoff's youngest daughter Tatyana), director of "the Serge Rachmaninoff Foundation" reveals that his grandmother, Rachmaninoff's wife, just before she died told her grandson the true story; that Rachmaninoff kept in the contact with Lena Dahl his whole life (Rachmaninoff lived 1873-1943)!!

Did Rachmaninoff keep two loves alive, to two women, his whole life? One warm, caring and mild, the other explosive and passionate?

Addition in the evening: I have just returned from a concert. So relieved it is done. Have accompanied four young men. In a concert with other smaller violinists. In the old gymnasium here, in a beautiful assembly-hall. With a great acoustic. And the grand-piano was fixed so I didn't have to work so hard!

Sit down after an almost full work-day and concentrate and focus on what I should do... With over 50 pupils a week having time to practice, which is certainly needed i this case...

People around one shall be social to too. And I still have problems being in focus. But of course here the soloists was and should be in focus. But I think it can sound fairly well when I play?? And these pieces weren't easy... So I am not entirely invisible... Even with this I have problems.

And actually, after our lunch-concert January 31, my companion and our "director of study" said to me that a colleague since many years, a very good flutist (which I have played with a lot) said that I am the best accompanist... Of course I felt proud and glad, but...

So many things in the society and around me also make me feel a lot, astonishment, rebellion, anger... And I also try to write what I feel at the same time as I have to manage my work; have over 50 pupils a week, in ages ranging from 6 to 19 (or 20) with all different interests and motivations... And on top keeping my own playing running... And manage to focus when I shall play with young people on concerts, and doing it in a way so I don't destroy for hem... Having my own nerves in check.

The young men seemed to be very satisfied, which makes me so glad... Actually three of them made reverence to me when they thanked for the applauds, appreciating and grateful in a really nice and way. A mutual respect I hope. And this really feels as an honor!!!

I had to hug two of them, took them round their shoulders from the side, showing I like them. I hope respectfully doing this. Hugging with real warmth. These boys/young men belong to a group I am one of the responsible for... And three of them are new in the group since this fall.

k, the fine-cultural person!?? Yes, I like classical/"serious" music, but other music too... There is much of a certain sort of Swedish folk-music in me too... And I like our child-songs... Rock and pop too... etc. And I wish I had got the chance to continue with my dancing... Danced ballet when I was 9-10. And as grown up I have danced jazz a little... And cooperated with dance-teachers for some years, and thought this with dance is very interesting: jazz-, free- etc. And here they dance all sorts; street- something...

Now take a breath and plan the lessons for tomorrow. Starting already in the morning.

But I think I have to watch so I am not active from almost directly I have gone up from bed till I go to bed. Write a little less?? Try not to be so upset over phenomena in the world??

What a pity this video was so suddenly broken before the movement was finished, but this recording was so great!!! With a great pianist. And music with a lot of emotions... The music we played this evening also contained a wide spectrum of emotions and expressions...

Addition February 20: I found the second part of the first movement!!??